Would you prefer lies or would u prefer the truth? :)). I got a friend who just asked me how to maintain a long distance relationship .... I asked myself too am i really that good? I just told him that i really loved the person thats it. I told him that we broke up last week because of some things i just didnt think about and did a mistake... My friend told me why would i tell the truth if she doesnt know ? just tell her lies so she wont hate u more... But i told her that i've already adapted my life with urs and i want to be with you forever so i wont tell you lies...
I know what i told u earlier made u trust me lesser.. I know too but I didnt send any pictures to anyone... I just said ya... Even if they asked me for it again i would just say no, i wont want my gf to be exposed around... Im not a cheater, i just want a simple love life.... With you.
I dont know why i just think too much about us when u said 1 week 1 week.... Its like we'll break up again or ... u're waiting something to happen in 1 week's time ... I dont know what is it but its okay... I sent merlysa an email saying that we're now talking together again ... Hahahaha ... I guess so many things made u really forgot about me totally... It seems that i have to slowly gain them back again.. I love you beibii.
Friday, January 15, 2010
Thursday, January 14, 2010
9th =)
Things have gone great so far since the day u gave me another chance, I hope you can be happy like this with me for the rest of our lives. But I've started to wonder than do u really feel the same as before? Do you really think you can still accept me? All of these questions popped out of my head...
I've been very happy that when u have problems ( you had a nightmare), u thought of me( u thought its embarrassing) and you called me lao gong once yesterday. I remembered that, its been a long time you've stopped calling me that. Yesterday u fell asleep as well without telling me hahaha... Beibiii, i'm really thankful for the few days u've given to me and trying to accept me back again. The plan to meet you wasnt cancelled when we broke up, i still wanted to meet you. But you asked me something that should u meet me or not...
After u asked me that i've been thinking so much, i'm even crying writing this i dont know why. I think you are still suspecting me in real life. But i dont blame you laaa hahaha .... Things like this cannot be forced to do. If u really no confidence to meet me then its ok lor. I think this 1 week of us being together will be a week that "Can we accept each other again or not?" ... I love you beibii. Take care.
I've been very happy that when u have problems ( you had a nightmare), u thought of me( u thought its embarrassing) and you called me lao gong once yesterday. I remembered that, its been a long time you've stopped calling me that. Yesterday u fell asleep as well without telling me hahaha... Beibiii, i'm really thankful for the few days u've given to me and trying to accept me back again. The plan to meet you wasnt cancelled when we broke up, i still wanted to meet you. But you asked me something that should u meet me or not...
After u asked me that i've been thinking so much, i'm even crying writing this i dont know why. I think you are still suspecting me in real life. But i dont blame you laaa hahaha .... Things like this cannot be forced to do. If u really no confidence to meet me then its ok lor. I think this 1 week of us being together will be a week that "Can we accept each other again or not?" ... I love you beibii. Take care.
8th =)
Things have gone calm these few days, She has finally forgiven me and going to try to accept me again. But i've discovered a few things that have hurt her before when we were still together. Even i felt the pain. I do realize that delayed messages also do make me miss you more and more. I always checked my phone if u had messaged me earlier and i did not realize. But i dont wanna rush things anymore, i'll always wait for you =).
Its true that a woman can think alot in a minute, even i can think alot in a minute. But what they think mostly is about you, not about others so appreciate what they do for you instead of thinking they're a nuisance. I've never had a girlfriend before, this is my first =p. She got jealous over reading my posts and comments on facebook, i realize that i got jealous as well because i read hers too. Even though its not a like a "close relationship" topic type kinda stuff, but i still felt jealous over her conversation with another guy. Now i start to feel what she felt before... Im sorry beibii =).
I was given 1 week to show that i've changed for you, i think its a good idea too. After u accepted me again, i think that i should appreciate you more now and love you more. Thanks alot beibii. Love you.
Its true that a woman can think alot in a minute, even i can think alot in a minute. But what they think mostly is about you, not about others so appreciate what they do for you instead of thinking they're a nuisance. I've never had a girlfriend before, this is my first =p. She got jealous over reading my posts and comments on facebook, i realize that i got jealous as well because i read hers too. Even though its not a like a "close relationship" topic type kinda stuff, but i still felt jealous over her conversation with another guy. Now i start to feel what she felt before... Im sorry beibii =).
I was given 1 week to show that i've changed for you, i think its a good idea too. After u accepted me again, i think that i should appreciate you more now and love you more. Thanks alot beibii. Love you.
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
7th =)
Its 12 50 am in Perth. I woke up after a 2 hours nap from 10 oclock because i thought u really needed me. Maybe u just wanted to talk to me. But I promised to be there to talk to you when u really need someone to talk. Just then u told me your house has no electricity, reminded me the past. I really missed the past hahaha...
I've thought through after u said you dont want to give me an answer, all along i thought i had hope. I think im hopeless for now, Dont think im giving up tho, but i think you only needed me some time. So i should be thinking that we're maybe just brother and sister relationship. This way i feel better i guess? I think all my life i cant prove that i'm right anymore. I thought you could forgive me and give me the last chance, but im not worth it anymore.
My friend told me before that dont mention or even talk to a girl on facebook or anything, i realize how strong it can make ppl misunderstood about that. But all my life i never like to hide secrets or anything to my love, i've done this, i'll admit to her that i've done it. If i didnt, i would say i didnt do it. I thought its better like that, i thought wrong. Maybe i shouldnt say anything at all since the first place.
When i had a nap from 10 to 12, u sent me an sms. This was like my 1st time seeing u sending me an sms after i woke up since we broke up... Made me happy forwhile, but i think its just that u want to chat with me. Maybe its fate for me to wake up. I think no matter what i tell u now, its hard for you to believe, i dont blame you. U said we shouldnt have broke up, i think so too.. Because i still love you.
I've thought through after u said you dont want to give me an answer, all along i thought i had hope. I think im hopeless for now, Dont think im giving up tho, but i think you only needed me some time. So i should be thinking that we're maybe just brother and sister relationship. This way i feel better i guess? I think all my life i cant prove that i'm right anymore. I thought you could forgive me and give me the last chance, but im not worth it anymore.
My friend told me before that dont mention or even talk to a girl on facebook or anything, i realize how strong it can make ppl misunderstood about that. But all my life i never like to hide secrets or anything to my love, i've done this, i'll admit to her that i've done it. If i didnt, i would say i didnt do it. I thought its better like that, i thought wrong. Maybe i shouldnt say anything at all since the first place.
When i had a nap from 10 to 12, u sent me an sms. This was like my 1st time seeing u sending me an sms after i woke up since we broke up... Made me happy forwhile, but i think its just that u want to chat with me. Maybe its fate for me to wake up. I think no matter what i tell u now, its hard for you to believe, i dont blame you. U said we shouldnt have broke up, i think so too.. Because i still love you.
6th =)
After listening to a song about a "fairy tale" made me remember about me and my girlfriend's fairy tale we were talking about before. We liked talking about random stories but the important thing is that it made us smile and laugh. I remember its romeo and juliet, its a true story not a fairy tale. But i dont think the fairy tale still exist in our lives anymore.
I remember my girlfriend couldnt sleep some nights before, i was there to talk to her until she fell asleep and did not reply me! haahahha pigggg. But it was cute, i didnt blame her for that. We used to send messages to each other when one of us wake up earlier than the other. I missed those days. I even missed the first day when u actually got jealous over a lyric =). Has the time given to me already finished? I should have spent more time with her together. It is too late to realize now.
Beibiii, do u remember the time i drew u keroppi? Hahahahaa! U kept asking me to draw hello kitty as well, but i kept giving u fat ones. HAhahahahaha.... But the most funny one is u asked me to draw YOU with msn messengerrrrrrrr. You think i was god ya ? hahaha... Princess princess princess =). I also missed the time you kept missing me most of the nights when i went to bed. I want to let you know that every night, i missed you too...
I remember u told me that you got the phone number for both of us. I said I'll always love you 1314, you did not know for a whole night! Everytime i look at ur number, it really reminds me of what i said before and i get sad from what i've done. I even remembered that everytime we talk on msn, any little problems you would still tell me, i realize that u would tell me most of the things. But i think time changed, it looks like i will be just another guy on the internet u just met and not important to you anymore.
I felt weak when u told me that when u think of me, it reminds you of girls. Which made you hate me more. When you said that, I was speechless and got no idea what to say. From a person that loves me, turning into a person that thinks im a playboy. I think it was because of me talking randomly to them. I was thinking about this when i was trying to sleep, i feel like i'm useless now. After thinking for a long time, i think that it will be so hard for u to get back with me already.
I said before that when you really need someone to talk to, I can talk to you. I dont mind you dont care about me for a while, as long as you need me with problems, i wont mind helping. I was serious about me comforting you is enough for me. Thats the least i can do, Because i want you to have a happy life too. Because I love you.
I remember my girlfriend couldnt sleep some nights before, i was there to talk to her until she fell asleep and did not reply me! haahahha pigggg. But it was cute, i didnt blame her for that. We used to send messages to each other when one of us wake up earlier than the other. I missed those days. I even missed the first day when u actually got jealous over a lyric =). Has the time given to me already finished? I should have spent more time with her together. It is too late to realize now.
Beibiii, do u remember the time i drew u keroppi? Hahahahaa! U kept asking me to draw hello kitty as well, but i kept giving u fat ones. HAhahahahaha.... But the most funny one is u asked me to draw YOU with msn messengerrrrrrrr. You think i was god ya ? hahaha... Princess princess princess =). I also missed the time you kept missing me most of the nights when i went to bed. I want to let you know that every night, i missed you too...
I remember u told me that you got the phone number for both of us. I said I'll always love you 1314, you did not know for a whole night! Everytime i look at ur number, it really reminds me of what i said before and i get sad from what i've done. I even remembered that everytime we talk on msn, any little problems you would still tell me, i realize that u would tell me most of the things. But i think time changed, it looks like i will be just another guy on the internet u just met and not important to you anymore.
I felt weak when u told me that when u think of me, it reminds you of girls. Which made you hate me more. When you said that, I was speechless and got no idea what to say. From a person that loves me, turning into a person that thinks im a playboy. I think it was because of me talking randomly to them. I was thinking about this when i was trying to sleep, i feel like i'm useless now. After thinking for a long time, i think that it will be so hard for u to get back with me already.
I said before that when you really need someone to talk to, I can talk to you. I dont mind you dont care about me for a while, as long as you need me with problems, i wont mind helping. I was serious about me comforting you is enough for me. Thats the least i can do, Because i want you to have a happy life too. Because I love you.
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
5th =)
Its 5 oclock in the morning, had 4 hours sleep. After waking up i couldnt sleep anymore thinking about you. Theres too much in my head right now. I cant stop thinking about you. Time has changed, so did we. I really wished i could be right beside of you right now taking care of you.
I couldn't wait for an answer yesterday because i could feel that u missed me for some reason. I really hope that we could have got back together and i could change to be a better man. U said "I love you" early made me feel so happy and i thought the answer would be yes, i was wrong. I felt really sad when u told me u planned to study, which u didnt want to before. But the good thing is u meet many new friends and get a degree like your mother wanted. But what i felt the most sad was you agreed to tell me if u're going out with another guy, which i know i shouldnt have asked.
I know you may feel sad after reading this blog, its not supposed to be sad for any of us, it should just be like a diary for me thinking about you. But all of these dont really matter in the end, its just me thinking too much about you. I'm satisfied about me talking to you when u were bored but i hope ur headache goes away by tomorrow. Dont push urself too much =).
I know i do get jealous easily when u are chatting with someone else, thats the reason why i keep asking, i hope i can stop too =(. Im sorry for that. I dont know why i just feel that you still dont trust me and keep reading my facebook if theres any information that u can gather, i hope u wont suspect me anymore because the truth is, i wont cheat on you. I really want to meet you, but i think that u dont want me too which really made me feel hopeless.
Anyways, if u really need to talk to me, just let me know and i'll be there for you because its time for me to cut the strings. But dont worry, i wont give up waiting for you. Take care and Dont push urself. Get more rest and drink more water. I love you.
I couldn't wait for an answer yesterday because i could feel that u missed me for some reason. I really hope that we could have got back together and i could change to be a better man. U said "I love you" early made me feel so happy and i thought the answer would be yes, i was wrong. I felt really sad when u told me u planned to study, which u didnt want to before. But the good thing is u meet many new friends and get a degree like your mother wanted. But what i felt the most sad was you agreed to tell me if u're going out with another guy, which i know i shouldnt have asked.
I know you may feel sad after reading this blog, its not supposed to be sad for any of us, it should just be like a diary for me thinking about you. But all of these dont really matter in the end, its just me thinking too much about you. I'm satisfied about me talking to you when u were bored but i hope ur headache goes away by tomorrow. Dont push urself too much =).
I know i do get jealous easily when u are chatting with someone else, thats the reason why i keep asking, i hope i can stop too =(. Im sorry for that. I dont know why i just feel that you still dont trust me and keep reading my facebook if theres any information that u can gather, i hope u wont suspect me anymore because the truth is, i wont cheat on you. I really want to meet you, but i think that u dont want me too which really made me feel hopeless.
Anyways, if u really need to talk to me, just let me know and i'll be there for you because its time for me to cut the strings. But dont worry, i wont give up waiting for you. Take care and Dont push urself. Get more rest and drink more water. I love you.
4th =)
Its my 4th post already. My days have been very boring without you. No one to smile at, no one to laugh with and no one to love. I miss you very much. After we talked just now i start to think a lot, i think everything i do is worth it because they're for you.
You told me there are lots of problems in the future, i start to wonder as well. Yes the problems may be hard for us to solve, but i think i will find a way to solve them. I hope that you'll give us time for that. I need time to think how to solve the problems. You told me that before u almost made a mistake, i got sad as well if u think that u've made a mistake loving me... I think religious problem doesnt matter ... as for families yeah ... we can solve that.
I know that you are thinking about whether or not to accept me or not. I know u're confused about me and other girls u think that i flirt the past weeks. Its hard to accept the fact that i dont like other girls than you. I really never thought of going for other girls, but i know that i want to spend my whole life with you.
Its really hard for me to accept that u dont love me as much before, but you said you still love me, thats all i need for now. No matter how far i have to go, no matter how much time i have to spend, i will still do it for you and slowly gain ur love again. Its worth it, because I love you.
You told me there are lots of problems in the future, i start to wonder as well. Yes the problems may be hard for us to solve, but i think i will find a way to solve them. I hope that you'll give us time for that. I need time to think how to solve the problems. You told me that before u almost made a mistake, i got sad as well if u think that u've made a mistake loving me... I think religious problem doesnt matter ... as for families yeah ... we can solve that.
I know that you are thinking about whether or not to accept me or not. I know u're confused about me and other girls u think that i flirt the past weeks. Its hard to accept the fact that i dont like other girls than you. I really never thought of going for other girls, but i know that i want to spend my whole life with you.
Its really hard for me to accept that u dont love me as much before, but you said you still love me, thats all i need for now. No matter how far i have to go, no matter how much time i have to spend, i will still do it for you and slowly gain ur love again. Its worth it, because I love you.
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