2nd =)

My 2nd post of the day, Not too sure why i can write so much about my feelings when i'm actually broke up already. I think im just finding something to do that can express my feelings to readers or maybe even her if she happens to read this. If it really interests u then i'll say thanks for now.

I just talked to her like a few minutes ago, a few words she said can make me think back so many things. I think i've really regretted what i've done so far. She said "Before i wanted you but not anymore" really made me depress even more. I dont blame her for saying like this, who asked me to hurt her at the first place ? IT was me who brought all this up, a little pain will not be able to compare to how i hurt her before.

I must say, please put a person u love at the first place, not 2nd or 3rd. What i did was playing games caring less about her when she talked to me. Whenever i think of playing games, i really think about how immature i was before. It was nice of her to talk to me and all but it was me being stupid enough to put the conversation aside... Im sorry.

I used to say that I dont like make ups, i didnt like her to put them on. I really like the way she looked naturally not because shes pretty and all, but i love her for who she is now, not because of make up that makes her pretty. All the while she thinks shes not pretty without make up, but i must tell u the truth, she IS pretty without make ups.

I remember how we used to talk non stop at night, eventhough we say we wanted to sleep but end up delaying for like hours hahahaha, didnt even want to leave each other for awhile, just want to be beside of her. This time, we dont even care anymore... We rarely even talk to each other. I really want to say that i miss you every night after u sleep and i cant sleep thinking about you.