3rd =)

Its my 3rd post since yesterday, a bright day but not so bright for me. Doing nothing as usual, planned to blog instead of wasting my time thinking on my bed. The same usual day, I kept checking my phone and my email after i wake up wishing to read something happy =). Guessed today didnt work out so well at all. Did not plan to online much either, because every time i online i start thinking who i used to talk to most of the time.

Dreams can be remembered and maybe not, some dreams are what u see in the future. Some may be painful, which we can call nightmare and some dreams are plain happy dreams :). I dream something about you, i dont know if i should call it a happy one or a sad one for me. Remember that time you've so scared that u'll lose me after having a nightmare that i'll leave you one day. I was there to talk to you about that i wont leave you, here i am now. I used to remember too I said i'll sleep after you, in case u cant sleep i'll still be there for you to talk to. I really wished i could do that again hahaha... =).

People say, if u really love someone, say it when u mean it. I start to wonder as well did i really mean it before. Now i mean it, but i think its too late now. Promises are forever, but if its broken, it can never go back to what it was before.

Remember most of the times u told me i sms u made u smile infront of people? I wished i could make u smile more. Even when we were webcamming, we made alot of funny faces or something like that make both of us smile =), I loved to see you smile and happy those times. I remembered u wrote the "forgive me" paper and showed it to me as well to apologize, but u were too embarassed to show me again. Those were the happy times.

I never told you i liked to talk to you right? Ur first call was when i was angry and u called me when i was sleeping already. You were very brave that time. Whenever i hear ur voice, i feel like my problems are already solved. You said u were too shy to talk to me again, but it was me who kept on pushing you. I know i was abit impatient causing me to hate u a bit. But now i realize it wasnt important anymore, i should have waited. The words that made me smile when talking to you was.... You said "I love you too" :).

I grew up with music and loved listening to them but not good at singing songs. Im Chinese and i cant speak Mandarin was an embarassment, but i tried singing to you, and i enjoyed singing to the one i loved the most even though i never loved someone else before, it was a happy thing to do for me. I remembered that you liked Tank - Zhuan shu tian shi alot. But then again, i sang to you Ai hen jian dan by David Tao made me happy because i thought it was a true song for me to you.

The past few weeks since we broke up, I heard alot from you that alot of guys want you to be their gf. I dont know if i should be happy or sad. To be honest, in my dream i met you and ur bf was a rich kind guy. I think he has a nice heart, thats what i wished for. I think i saw you happy as well.

Beibii, I love you.