5th =)

Its 5 oclock in the morning, had 4 hours sleep. After waking up i couldnt sleep anymore thinking about you. Theres too much in my head right now. I cant stop thinking about you. Time has changed, so did we. I really wished i could be right beside of you right now taking care of you.

I couldn't wait for an answer yesterday because i could feel that u missed me for some reason. I really hope that we could have got back together and i could change to be a better man. U said "I love you" early made me feel so happy and i thought the answer would be yes, i was wrong. I felt really sad when u told me u planned to study, which u didnt want to before. But the good thing is u meet many new friends and get a degree like your mother wanted. But what i felt the most sad was you agreed to tell me if u're going out with another guy, which i know i shouldnt have asked.

I know you may feel sad after reading this blog, its not supposed to be sad for any of us, it should just be like a diary for me thinking about you. But all of these dont really matter in the end, its just me thinking too much about you. I'm satisfied about me talking to you when u were bored but i hope ur headache goes away by tomorrow. Dont push urself too much =).

I know i do get jealous easily when u are chatting with someone else, thats the reason why i keep asking, i hope i can stop too =(. Im sorry for that. I dont know why i just feel that you still dont trust me and keep reading my facebook if theres any information that u can gather, i hope u wont suspect me anymore because the truth is, i wont cheat on you. I really want to meet you, but i think that u dont want me too which really made me feel hopeless.

Anyways, if u really need to talk to me, just let me know and i'll be there for you because its time for me to cut the strings. But dont worry, i wont give up waiting for you. Take care and Dont push urself. Get more rest and drink more water. I love you.