Introduction

Im not a good writer or a blogger. This blog is for me to write about my feelings whenever i'm thinking about my ex... I know everything i say will be very depressing and you can even call me emo and everything but i hope that she will understand what i'm saying.

Me and my ex spent a few months together, but we had a long distance relationship for 6 months. We broke up about a week or 2 weeks ago. It was all because of me because i did not appreciate a perfect girl like her. We've been through alot of pain together, i've always think that i'm always nice to her but i think there was a really silly mistake that i've done that i think she cant accept me anymore, i dont think i do too. The reason why i'm still thinking about her is because im still in love with her. 6 Months eventhough through the internet, i still know that whats love is love. Its feelings that make me think about her every time. The mistake i did was expecting more and more, wanting her to do more stuff for me. My patience has gone crazy and i blame myself for it.

Eventhough we talk most of the time on the internet, despite we're both far away but we still can make something worth talking about or doing. I sang for her, drew for her, write her letters. Everything turned into memories. Things like this make us laugh more and love each other more, i think. But when we broke up, i still think that those memories wont go away. I regret doing mistake to end both of us and now i'm no one to her anymore. But all i can do for now is support her and do things shes happy with.

I remember we use to send sms-es to each other in the morning after we woke up, making us happy straight away after waking up. That time i use to keep checking my phone straight away after i woke up. An Sms can make your whole day brighter. After we had fights and all, we've stopped sending sms to each other. As day passes, i feel more lonely i still check my phone after i wake up everyday.

The most important thing about our love was care and support. When it comes to conversation, other things like hanging out with friends or partying may not feel much love as when i'm talking to her. Previously i thought i wanted to go party for a few days maybe it can cheer me up abit because i was sad for quite awhile when i was with my ex .... But it may not be happy for my ex when she was home thinking about me. I really miss the days when she think about me and sms me that she misses me, because i do too.

Theres too much in my mind now. The whole day we did not talk much maybe a few texts. But i know she may be busy whole day going to her party and saloon. I dont think that she knows that i'm missing her whole day, but im happy to hear that she enjoyed her day today and met a few people. When i was at parties, i drank quite a fair bit of alcohol, she got angry and not happy about it. Now i know why she got angry, because i do feel sad too after i hear about it.

Things may not be as good as before, but shes happy these few days. Im actually happy to hear that but i may be sad inside. Things may not be easy to let go for me, memories are not easy to forget and love is not easy to give up on. I love you, Even if u're not with me now, I hope u do feel that i'm right by ur side supporting you.